Not much of anything happened this weekend. We had band practice Friday night. It was almost another bust of a practice because we all actually got there, only to find someone else using the church sound system. We just waited them out, we knew they would eventually get tired of singing. :) I don't know how much longer this band thing is going to work. We have the potential to be pretty good, but a lot of road blocks are coming up. Logistics and attitudes are the main problems. I only hope that we can work past these issues--I've gotten spoiled to singing with live music as opposed to those horrible CDs you have to buy.
I was supposed to take Clayton to a pool party Saturday night. I didn't. I have no REAL excuse as to why I didn't. I had even RSVP'd. I just didn't want to go--#1: I dreaded putting a bathing suit on for the world to see; #2: I dreaded dealing with Clayton by myself in the pool and everywhere else (Brian was out of town); #3: It's such a downer to see Clayton stare at all the other kids playing--he wants to play so bad! I just wish he could join them instead of always being a spectator. They all come and say hi to him, but that's about the extent of his "play." Ugh. I wish I wasn't like this! I deal with all these issues by simply avoiding certain situations. I just wish I could be with a group of friends and their kids without spending the next two days crying about poor pitiful me for having the disabled kid. But I cry for Clayton as much as myself. And what kind of example is that setting for him? We tell him and treat him as if he is capable of conquering the world, but then I cry everytime we are out in it? Wow. I've got some major issues to deal with, don't I? Maybe someday I'll have it under control, but for now it's seems like the wound just keeps festering. And my friendships suffer for it. It's so selfish of me to just avoid my friends and their social engagements--I hope they don't give up on me. I love them and their families, I just wish I could be around to show it more.
On the scrapbooking front, I was really hoping to make the Create My Keepsake Design Team, but I didn't. They did pick some very talented girls--they had 100 applications for three spots. I can't imagine picking from that many talented people! And although I didn't make the team, I did discover a great community at CMK--there are several girls from Arkansas and Missouri and the owner, Rebecca, is super sweet and very involved in the forums. Makes you feel right at home!
I finished six pages for my LSS today. Those pages are so hard to do because I don't have pictures to work off of! My usual process is to start with the pic, think of a title, get papers, etc. So I'm really challenged to get these pages done considering I have to change my process all around! She closes at three tomorrow, but I'm still hoping to get up there after Clayton's therapy. I am in dire need of adhesive--I can't believe I've gotten this close to running out! I also need to pick out some stuff for my July class. I'm focusing on chipboard this time and I can't wait to get started.
Happy Monday all--hope you have a great day!