Our Pastors went to a prayer conference last week and came back FIRED UP for The Lord. And on Sunday, our senior pastor preached a sermon straight from his heart--a sermon that although was meant for our church as a whole, I couldn't help but think about how it applied directly to our lives. The part that got me thinking was when he spoke of "crying out to the Lord," being literally on our faces before God praying . . . I used to do that on Clayton's behalf. Used to EXPECT the miracle of complete healing. But I have to admit that as the years have passed, I've started praying for just the little things--Lord, help Clayton make it 30 minutes in his stander today. Lord, help me have the strength and energy to get Clayton in and out of the car on our errands today. Lord, please keep Clayton calm while we are in this strange place. Lord, please help his legs loosen up so we can get his diaper and pants on this morning. These prayers are so different from LORD, WIPE THE BRAIN DAMAGE AWAY! LET HIM WALK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!!! Does that mean I'm accepting God's plan or does it mean I've given up?? Up until Sunday, I thought it meant accepting His will. And maybe it is, but that doesn't mean that I need to stop praying and crying out for the BIG miracle!
How can I look at my precious child and NOT plead and intercede on his behalf?!
Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete. John 16:24b